ADULTING

I've been adulting since 2009 and before that i was anxiously concerned about adulting. I got an early start in adulting and am finally starting to feel the weight of it. Adulting is a term my friend came up with to describe the life that comes with working a full time professional job, buying homes, planning for retirement, paying bills, and worrying about aging parents. 

I've been overwhelmed for what seems to be this entire year (which is clear from the frequency of updates on this website [i'm trying!]) and it has caught up with me. It's hard when you don't know what you want, i have likes and dislikes of course but i don't have some burning passion in me for something specific. I have so many hobbies and i want to learn just about everything and travel just about everywhere, but it seems as though the society we live in does not appreciate or reward the generalist, everyone wants the specialist and when you don't have a direction to specialize in it feels like you're stuck in neutral. 

Ramble ramble ramble ramble it's all relative (first world problems are still problems).

I miss my spark, i'm really trying hard to find it back, maybe you can relate.